Making a Mystery – Conrad’s Lord Jim

Lord Jim is the novel where Joseph Conrad’s ingenuity of construction and technique come together most spectacularly in service of creating an atmosphere of mystery. A simple work in story, it tells the tale of a man who, having once lost his honour, cannot live down this fact, and instead chooses always and ever to flee it. Upon this simple foundation Conrad builds a formidable sense of psychological depth for its main character with his prose, so that even as the story becomes no more complex than this, its main character himself never quite comes to bore us.

At the same time, to me the novel is also one of Conrad’s clearest failures. Having created a masterful atmosphere, a wondrous fog of mystery, Conrad shines a torch on it in the later sections of the work and devalues much of the power of the world he had made. Be that as it may, the creation is what is interesting, and it is this that I propose to discuss here today.

A Body as much as a Mind

“He was an inch, perhaps two, under six feet, powerfully built, and he advanced straight at you with a slight stoop of the shoulders, head forward, and a fixed from-under stare which made you think of a charging bull. His voice was deep, loud, and his manner displayed a kind of dogged self-assertion which had nothing aggressive in it. It seemed a necessity, and it was directed apparently as much at himself as at anybody else. He was spotlessly neat, apparelled in immaculate white from shoes to hat, and in the various Eastern ports where he got his living as ship-chandler’s water-clerk he was very popular.”

What an opening! We must really imagine this for a moment. Out of the void of the first page we suddenly have a figure coming straight for us – you want to leap out of the way before it’s too late, like those people encountering the first moving pictures of oncoming trains. With Jim like a “bull” we have a sense of latent violence, of danger. But then “dogged” comes along and contains this opposite: we think of a much smaller animal, so that this initial violence is immediately tempered by uncertainty – is there “nothing aggressive” in it after all? Such initial ambiguities are only heightened by words like “seemed”, “apparently.” Here we have all that we will come to recognise as Jim – an impression and an uncertainty, mixing together. Yet before all this, we have a body. For it is as a body that Conrad creates Jim as a real figure. We see him, from the first sentence, as a physical thing – we know how he walks, where he has been, how he is dressed.

Without such solidity of body, speculating on a personality feels like cheating – it’s as dull as a friend gossiping about someone you do not know. Throughout Lord Jim, Jim himself is a bodily presence just as his mind is an absence. Apart from the first twenty-or-so pages, the novel is narrated by the sailor and gentleman Charles Marlow, whom we might know as the narrator of Heart of Darkness (among other stories). This adds a powerful limitation to the narrative’s range by keeping us behind his eyes, within his knowledge, until this finally becomes stretched unfairly near the end of the work. While Marlow thinks he knows Jim’s heart, he certainly knows him as a presence: “A feeble burst of many voices mingled with the tinkle of silver and glass floated up from the dining-room below; through the open door the outer edge of the light from my candle fell on his back faintly; beyond all was black; he stood on the brink of a vast obscurity, like a lonely figure by the shore of a sombre and hopeless ocean.”

We see Jim here, as a body in the world. Marlow has to see him thus, or he would have nobody to talk about. But we see his back – the physical representation of the distance between his heart and ourselves. At the final time Marlow sees him, we also see Jim as a body without seeing inside him: “The twilight was ebbing fast from the sky above his head, the strip of sand had sunk already under his feet, he himself appeared no bigger than a child—then only a speck, a tiny white speck, that seemed to catch all the light left in a darkened world. . . . And, suddenly, I lost him. . . .” As descriptions, they do a thing that is by no means easy – they frustrate our desire for complete knowledge without being unfair. They say that just as with a real person, we can know Jim as a presence without fully knowing him as a spirit. They force upon us the duty of interpretation – we must try to piece together the scraps of a soul to match this bodily outline.

Interpreting a limited material

This disjunction between revealed body and hidden mind is certainly one way Lord Jim creates its mystery and encourages interpreting it. Another is that it foregrounds interpreting as a general condition of life almost from the very start, through Jim’s time in court. Jim’s great crime, his original sin, is to have been first mate on the “Patna” and to have acted in dereliction of his duty: he abandons its passengers, pilgrims heading to Mecca, together with a few other members of the Patna’s crew, after the ship appears to have sustained critical damage while at sea. “I had jumped… it seems.” Our first view of him through Marlow’s eyes is when he is already in the dock being tried. Jim is trying to “tell honestly the truth of his experience”, while the court is after facts. But the narrator despairs: “as if facts could explain anything!” The contrast of the bureaucratic, fact-finding, courtroom language with the complex descriptions and uncertainties of Jim’s experience is the first clue that interpretation is central to the novel.

Or perhaps not, because Jim himself is an inveterate interpreter too: “He loved these dreams and the success of his imaginary achievements. They were the best parts of life, its secret truth, its hidden reality.” He is, as another character remarks, a “Romantic.” Unlike the other characters, there’s evidence that Jim engages in that most dangerous of occupations – reading. It is for this reason that there’s such a gap between his idea of himself and the cowardly (or human) reality that he demonstrates when tested in the Patna case. It is Jim’s horror at his own self that leads him to constantly flee the positions that Marlow arranges for him in various places around South East Asia, before finally ending up in the remote village of Patusan, far away from anyone who might know his shame at his one staining moment of weakness.

The court interprets in search of facts, Jim interprets in search of heroism, but Marlow does his own interpreting too. Marlow sits and tells a story after dinner. It is dark, but the other figures create the sense of a community, a class, of which Marlow is both merely a representative and a critical voice. Marlow’s interest in Jim comes from his recognition of Jim as also “one of us” – a phrase repeated, over and over, in the novel. “Perhaps, unconsciously, I hoped I would find that something, some profound and redeeming cause, some merciful explanation, some convincing shadow of an excuse.” Jim is a gentleman, well-bred, well-spoken, and in a trust-based world like that of shipping, he has not only disappointed himself, he has also shamed his people – Marlow included.

The sense that Jim’s crime is touches all within this group is emphasised by the way that Marlow lets others speak of it and share their own view of it. There’s a Captain Brierly, whose passages in chapter VI are a perfect story in themselves. This man, who has the proven heroism of having saved lives at sea to his name, is part of the three men judging Jim’s case. “Why are we tormenting that young chap?” He asks Marlow between sessions. Jim’s guilt so challenges his world that Brierly jumps overboard a few weeks after the trial is concluded. There is also a Frenchman that Marlow meets in Sydney, who was crew of a gunboat that discovered the Patna, floating aimlessly with its white crew absconded. Hence the story that Jim tells is added to, changed, challenged, by the others that Marlow encounters.

The most interesting, from the perspective of the narrative, is the character of Chester, a West Australian who plans a scheme for extracting a significant amount of guano in a dangerous region of the ocean. He correctly identifies Jim as someone down on his luck who may see the offer of a risky and remunerative trip to the to a guano island as a way out, and tries to persuade Marlow over to his view. It does not work – Marlow has taken it upon himself to sort Jim’s destiny out, perhaps in the hope of saving his whole people the shame. Angry, Chester retorts: “Oh! You are devilish smart… but you are like the rest of them. Too much in the clouds. See what you will do with him.”

Two things are interesting in this moment. The first is that it is an attack on our narrator. Marlow is an active participant in Lord Jim, not a passive spinner of yarns. He catches Jim immediately after the trial, helps him get jobs across South East Asia. We expect him to be benevolent, and he is not maliciously “unreliable” in the way that some narrators are. We might recognise that his own interest is driven by a murky set of elements, including his desire that Jim not let “us” down, but we largely trust him. By having Marlow be challenged so directly, readers now also have to judge him not just as a narrator, but as an actor too. In other words, through challenging Marlow, Conrad makes it clear to readers that they should be engaging in judging him too. We must interpret our interpreter.

The second interesting thing here is that it is a clear example of a branching path in the story. Conrad is a writer we generally associate with a deterministic view of life, of dark fates leading to inevitable demises. Marlow’s judgement of Chester is correct – the expedition to the guano island most likely leads to the deaths of everyone involved following the passage through the region of a hurricane – but that means it is fatal, but not fatalistic. For once Conrad seems to be suggesting there was another option for his story. That every moment contains a choice is a truism. That Jim made the choice to jump and that this has cursed his life is a central fact of Lord Jim. But what Jim does afterwards is up to him, though his character naturally plays a significant role in determining what he does.

We cannot choose without a sense of options, and here we have an option provided directly – Jim could follow Marlow’s advice, or he could follow Chester’s idea. The story could be otherwise – it is open. By doing this, perhaps unintentionally, Conrad is furthering the idea of being critical towards Marlow. If Marlow were merely good or bad we might give him no further thought, but if there’s an alternative offered, readers can actively consider which one is best. It is another impulse towards involvement, created through Conrad’s technique.

Further makers of mystery

I have read almost everything in Conrad’s major works now, have read his letters, have re-read much, including Lord Jim itself. Some aspects of his style are now more transparent to me than they would be to someone encountering him for the first time. He is extremely reliant on tripartite descriptions, on weighing down nouns with barnacle-like adjectives, on abusing the thesaurus for synonyms for “unclear”. He brings in a view of a fallen world not subtly, but through countless references to devilry, the infernal, and downward movement. In the same way he suggests a rigidity of destiny through his regular references to fate. His primary sources of reference are biblical. At least some of the turgidity of his prose comes from the heaviness of the adjectives and the occasional bad English (words or phrases directly translated French or Polish). When read with the right frame of mind, however, all these features of his language become another source of atmospheric murk and hence of mystery.

Just as Conrad’s prose makes the mystery, so too does his use of languages. The Frenchman mentioned earlier speaks partly in French, just as the central figure among Marlow’s advisors, Stein, speaks in an English brutalised into something half-German: “It is not good for you to find you cannot make your dream come true, for the reason that you not strong enough are, or not clever enough. Ja!” His advice for Jim: “In the destructive element immerse… that was the way. To follow the dream, and again to follow the dream…” The idea of this blog post has been that Conrad builds a mystery in the novel by showering us in interpretations and forcing interpretation upon us. Such phrases as these from Stein, comprehensible yet not quite clear, serve this purpose also. They are not only memorable for their unique phrasing, they are also just vague enough to force us into reflection. What exactly does this mean?

The actual language of the novel, the light and dark, the fog, all of the adjectives, is perhaps less interesting once you have read enough of it. It creates a mood of mystery, rather than being itself mysterious. “The views he let me have of himself were like those glimpses through the shifting rents in a thick fog.” Like the images of Jim with his back turned, or pacing, or whatever, they tell us we cannot know him – but we, stubborn, if we are in a good mood and are willing to give the story its due, try regardless.

Conclusion

The story its due… Well, Jim’s first half is up there with Heart of Darkness, and indeed the two works were written near-simultaneously, but as soon as the action moves to Patusan and Jim becomes a kind of ruler there, everything falls apart in my eyes. (And in that of many critics.) Conrad’s characterisation of the native population is less well done than of the Europeans, Marlow’s narration becomes more reliant on what he has not witnessed, which simplifies the interpretative layering, and an external figure is introduced to resolve Jim’s ambiguities by bringing the story to a violent and silly, however real the sources are, conclusion.

On the final page Marlow asks: “Is he satisfied—quite, now, I wonder?” But this would be just as appropriate a remark to be made as Marlow retreats from Patusan after his one and only visit, watching Jim shrinking by the shore… some hundred pages before the novel actually ends. To me, Lord Jim is not a “Romance”. It is a mystery of a single man’s soul. Therefore, what deepens that mystery improves the book, while what takes it away diminishes it. The last third of the novel is therefore its unravelling and could be removed without harm.

Still, the ravelling is brilliant. When Lord Jim is at its best every word, every sentence, serves to create a sense of depth and mystery around its central character. It’s humbling, and shocking, how simple the story actually is. A man jumps from a boat, mistakenly thinking it is sinking. He is tried and banned from working as a sailor again. A fellow gentleman aids him in finding new work, which he flees each time his past is remembered. Eventually he ends up on an island where nobody knows his past, and he gets the chance to recreate himself. This works, for a time, until a figure from the outside world comes to break the illusion.

It’s a story we could tell in thirty pages, not three hundred. Even psychologically, Jim is not that complicated. But we see him as from a chair in a dark room, with his back to us as he stares into a moonlit night, and Conrad creates thereby something more than a man – a symbol, a mystery, a ghost to haunt us. Regardless of whether we ultimately like the work, in terms of the writing there is so much deserving of wonder.

How to Read an Aphorism

The aphorism, that snippet of wit and wisdom, is not a prose form I imagine many of us encounter regularly these days. It is primarily French in origin, with its most celebrated practitioner being the moralist François de La Rochefoucauld. I myself first encountered it through Friedrich Nietzsche, whose ill-health meant he could only focus long enough to put down a paragraph or two before needing to cool his brains, and who was happy to take any influence provided it wasn’t German. Both of these men are long dead; just as dead can the aphoristic form itself strike us as being.

An aphorism is a sentence or two, maybe at most a few paragraphs, on whatever takes the author’s fancy. They are philosophical, in that they are driven by ideas, but never system-building. If you wanted to build, you would write an essay, not scatter fragments like seeds. To write an aphorism, you must typically believe against something. In Theodor Adorno (in Minima Moralia) or Nietzsche’s cases, this “against” is a dislike for significant portions of the world they lived in. In the case of the French-language Romanian thinker Emil Cioran, it’s a dislike of nearly all the world he lived in, indeed of life itself. The typical impression of an aphorism is of witnessing someone engaged in a futile conflict with a great edifice, an elegant swordsman stabbing at the cold stone of castle walls.

Prejudice is often necessary to the aphorism, and it is precisely this which makes the form seem challenging to imagine writing today. An infamous one by Nietzsche, “You go to women – do not forget the whip”, provides an example. On the one hand, it conveys succinctly the importance of power dynamics for Nietzsche to his reader, but on the other it is reliant upon a (male) reader who is happy to take sexist ideas without question. The more prejudices we attempt today to dissolve – on race, gender, nation – the more we lose that centre of common understanding which an aphorism can work with. Nietzsche may dislike much of the modern world, but he needs it there to make his points. The best aphorisms are short, but brevity is enabled by us being able to recognise the world, the idea, for ourselves.

Prejudice and the absence of a system are not the only things that are needful to the aphorist. The most important is an overwhelming sense of one’s own importance and, of course, correctness. We shouldn’t underestimate how rare this actually is. Writers, especially of fiction, are uniquely predisposed to consider themselves great geniuses – but they are also typically wracked with self-doubts. In the case of fiction a creator typically believes in the merits of each work as a whole, rather than every aspect of it. Philosophers and other thinkers may likewise be utterly convinced that their key ideas are right, yet ready to deny themselves the megalomania that sees their every thought as being worthy of a crown of laurels.

For the aphorist, it is not so. Your ideas in your aphorisms range widely, and you must believe each one to be totally correct and worth sharing. In other words, you must be willing to assert to yourself and the world that you are a polymath, a rare genius. Such arrogance is another reason why few aphoristic books are being written and published today – the people truly arrogant enough to produce such a book are too busy in politics or leading large companies. This is why, to a certain extent, for the modern aphorism, we should look to social media, because it is here that we hear the select thoughts of those who believe the entire universe needs to hear them, compressed into the shortform.

We need arrogance because to doubt, for an aphorist, is fatal. Since an aphorism rarely has time to give examples, let alone argue, it works by the beauty of its prose and the power of its emotions to persuade us to its view. (“Logic and sermons never convince, / The damp of the night drives deeper into my soul” wrote Walt Whitman, whose poems are often filled with aphoristic little moments.) Since this is the case, to show doubt is to undermine everything you write – if you doubt, the reader will have cause to also. Regardless of the arrogance noted above, the aphorists I have read seem to be human, and no freer ultimately from self-questioning than the rest of us. Not showing it, then, is the thing.

This tension between feeling and revealing becomes part of the excitement of reading aphorisms. I think one of the best ways into reading someone like Cioran or Nietzsche is to think of their works as collectively constituting a work of fiction, complete with a highly opinionated narrative voice trying to get our attention and our trust. One of our goals becomes, as it is when we read fiction, the analysis of this narrative voice, the pinning down of its consistencies and inconsistencies, and identifying those moments when it seems to be hiding something from us that may yet prove essential. In many cases we can read a book of aphorisms looking for the gaps between the mask and the man – and it is normally a man – and not feel our time has been entirely wasted.

All of the above is a kind of defence of the aphorism and its writer. But this does not, really, get us any closer to reading or enjoying reading the things. Here I can only speak for myself, those things I noticed that helped me in a recent attempt at this.

The experience of reading a book of aphorisms is strange because it neither asks us to keep a thread of argument in mind, as does a typical non-fiction work, nor asks us to remember characters and stories as does a work of fiction. Yet memory is vital to the aphorism. “There are some words that hit like hammers. But others / You swallow like hooks and swim on and yet do not know it.” We ought to replace Hugo von Hofmannsthal’s “words” with “aphorisms” to get an idea of the role of memory in reading aphorisms. We must read to remember. The startling thing, for me, when I read Cioran, or even Nietzsche (a writer I much prefer), is how so many of the aphorisms do nothing for me. I read them and shrug to myself. But if we remember them, they will return to us, and if they are good aphorisms they will return to us at precisely that moment when they can best reveal their value and hidden truth to us. To someone in the habit of letting the words one reads leave their head as soon as they move onto the next sentence there’s almost no point reading the aphorisms at all.

To say that we have to read to remember hints at the importance we need to place in ourselves as readers. Just as the aphorist cannot show doubt, the reader of aphorisms must believe she will one day be receptive to them. The faith, the confidence, must be on both sides. To give up a book of aphorisms as we may give up a novel damns us as much as it damns the aphorist, for in doing this we say, in effect, that we believe we will never have the right frame of mind, that we are incapable of the receptivity needed for appreciating what is in front of us. That we are fixed, and dull, and heavy of spirit.

Such were my thoughts, anyway, as I wondered whether to write about Emil Cioran’s The Trouble with Being Born. I finished it last week, and had thought it would get no blog post. There was too little underlining, too few thoughts of my own to work with. That strange aphoristic rhythm – where we read page after page before suddenly gasping at something of beauty, or wit, or profundity – was not doing anything for me. Cioran, who has found a posthumous popularity among the anti-natalist community, (“Not to be born is undoubtedly the best plan of all. Unfortunately it is within no one’s reach”), is relentlessly negative in a way that I try to avoid adopting for myself.

Only occasionally would I reach for my pencil. “No position is so false as having understood and still remaining alive” – certainly a silly view, but one well expressed. At one point he describes mankind as “fidget[ing] as if he were on the threshold of an astonishing career.” These things we can respect for their imagery, even as we chuckle from beyond the margin. (Just as Adorno wrote that there can be “no right life in the wrong”, there can be no good aphorism in wrong prose.)

Other moments required more consideration at my end. “There is no ‘ecstasy’ which either memory or imagination can resuscitate!” seems frightening in its implications about the value of our moments, and for that reason worth carrying about, seeking in life the evidence that may one day disprove it. “The jealousy of the gods survives their disappearance” is another good example of something that works for me. Even if there are no gods, nor ever were, such a phrase by its mystery makes me wonder about their value in trying to explain something about the world I live in. Just flicking through the book now, I have come across another thing to note, as if to prove my point about needing to find the right time, the right inner receptivity, for what at another moment may be so many dead words. (What a relief to find something I wrote at the beginning of this post makes sense, at least for my own case…) The aphorism in question: “Every friendship is an inconspicuous drama, a series of subtle wounds.” Here, it’s less a question of whether I agree, but whether this provokes something. Perhaps that’s another good way of looking at an aphorism – each successful one seems to carry in itself the seed of any number of novels.

Perhaps the hardest thing about aphorisms is writing about them. They ought to speak for themselves. At school I might be given one and told to go away and write 1,500 words, the length of a short blog post on this website. But to write, as I normally do, a few paragraphs on each of the above, would make me look like an idiot. (This result may occur by accident at other times, but is not the intention of the blog.) I trust readers to know how to unpack the obvious meanings of a saying. And as for the deeper meanings, the ones that come out of the wound an aphorism leaves in us – these are too personal for me to share, and I imagine are just the same for you too.

They are strange things, aphorisms. These sentences of prejudice, arrogance, at times barely-concealed anxiousness, sometimes resonating, sometimes aggravating, sometimes doing nothing at all. I wrote the first part of this post in an attempt to make myself believe the time I spent with Cioran (not the first, because I read A Short History of Decay a few years ago) was not wasted, and with the magic that is granted me as your blogger, I somehow succeeded. Reflection added meanings, brought a certain sense to stacks of nonsense. Cioran himself writes of his form: “An Aphorism? Fire without flames. Understandable that no one tries to warm himself at it.” This is a deliberate silliness, one we shouldn’t take too seriously. A mask, a play, an act.

We don’t read such things to become warm. As Kafka wrote of good books, they must “be the axe for the frozen sea inside us.” Aphorisms are for when we are cold. They are the prick of pain that tells us we’re alive, and we must keep a store of them inside us, just in case the ice is ever at risk of getting too thick.  

The War Poetry of Viktoria Amelina, and her language

Viktoria Amelina was a Ukrainian writer and war crimes investigator who died following a Russian missile attack upon the city of Kramatorsk in June 2023. More than once, I have read of Ukrainians referring to her as the person who could have written their great novel of national survival and resistance. (Her first novel was about the Maidan Revolution in 2014.) Even without such talk of future greatness, her life was cut off while she was very young – only thirty-seven. She ought to have had so much time, for whatever becoming was to be. Twelve other individuals died from that same attack, including four children. Who knows what futures they might have found or made for themselves also, if only the missiles had missed.

I found the small collection of Amelina’s poetry, Svidchennya / Testimonies, in a strange little bookstore in Amsterdam that specialises in Eastern European literature. Amelina only wrote a few poems before her death, and the collection is padded out with art and a lengthy chronology of her travels and prizes and a thoughtful afterward by the writer Sofia Chelyak. Really, I cannot complain about the size, for the daintiness of the book made it something I could carry around with me at work, snatching a few lines here and there. It also meant it was not intimidating, like a novel, for someone approaching it in the original Ukrainian.


“I don’t write poetry
I am a prose writer
It’s just that the reality of war
eats up punctuation
the coherence of a subject
the coherence
eats up
as if into our language
there fell a shell”

Amelina’s poems range from such broken, fragmented verse, to more structured poems where the line lengths are fuller, the punctuation orderly, and there is even a hint of a rhyme. All of them are responses to the invasion of her country. We can imagine something like the verse I quoted above being scribbled in a notebook as she sits in a jeep under fire, heading towards a frontline city to try to protect her people. Then there are the more reflective verses, where I picture her sitting in some sad anonymous hotel room (in New York, say, waiting for a prize or the chance to speak), thinking of all the people who are not there anymore, or who have lost so much:

“When Mira left her home, she took with her a bead from her curtains
When Tim left his city, he took a small stone from the street
When Yarka lost her garden, she took an apricot’s stone
When Vira left her home she took nothing
“I’ll be back soon,” she said,
And took not a thing at all”

The poem names these people, and goes on to list still more of these little things, these talismans and protectors against a sense of greater loss, that people take with them.

“And then your home will be in your pocket,
And there it will sleep

You should take your home from your pocket
In a safe place
When you are ready”

These lines are beautiful because they are humble. Often, narratives of war and trauma are about overcoming. Here, Amelina states clearly that it’s not for the poet to decide how the narrative looks – it’s for the person to decide for themselves. “When you are ready.” Take your time to mourn, to grieve, and only then start again.

The poem ends still more strikingly, for someone like me (or, I presume, you), reading this far distant from the direct horror of the war. The second-to-last verse runs like this: “And what would you take with you?” Literally, this is Amelina asking herself (the word “take” is in the feminine singular past), and she answers her question (these stories). But it’s just as much, by hanging there in a separate line, a question to ourselves as readers. Reading something like Amelina’s poetry requires us to put in these imaginative leaps. It’s a kind of moral obligation. Reading it and remaining detached would be like pressing your face against the barbed wire fence at the edge of a camp, viewing what’s inside as a spectacle instead an outrage to your fellow-feeling.

The importance of naming and individualisation is also highlighted in the poem “The Losses of the Ukrainian Army”. It begins by noting that these numbers are secret, but then goes on, as if straining against the injunction to keep silent, to start numbering them:

“There will be the neighbour, a rather eccentric one,
Who planted red flowers.
The friend who never told off anyone.
The translator, whom we loved so much.
That girl who annoyed everyone.
The artist whom everyone liked,
But, it seems, loved that girl.”

A comparison with this kind of writing which comes to my mind is the work of Anna Akhmatova, in her Requiem, written with her son imprisoned during the Great Terror but not published until long after: “and I pray not for myself alone, / but for all of them, who stood out there with me.” Such a concern for others is no different to Amelina’s involvement of ordinary people by telling their stories in her own poems. Likewise, when Akhmatova says “I would like to call everyone by name, / But the list is taken, and there’s nowhere else to help me find out” she shows the same concern for naming and victims as individuals.

Yet while Akhmatova’s poetry is inevitably far more accomplished as poetry, thanks to her huge experience and focused talent in that medium, Amelina’s poems, at least to me, are just as powerful – indeed, possibly even more so. The majority of the poems in Testimonies are short, but as we read them we have an awful sense that they are alive. The number of people who have had to leave their homes since Amelina’s passing has only increased with new incursions into Sumi and Kharkiv regions. The defence of southern Donetsk has collapsed, leaving only the north unoccupied. This year civilian casualties have increased significantly as the air attack has ramped up in scale. And of course, whenever Amelina lists those who have died, we have to add the line with her own name ourselves. It is impossible not to.

These days, too, the mood is worse than when Amelina was writing. Her poems come from a time when hope of a complete victory was higher. She has a poem from April 2022 that seems almost overly optimistic to me now: “The future – it’s what we ask ourselves about during a quiet moment: / Do you see it? / Can you see it?” Of course, the answer eventually is a kind of yes, a kind of affirmation. The Russians had already left Kyiv region in a “gesture of goodwill”, and by the end of the year they would have been driven back to the Dnepr in Kherson Oblast and lost most of the lands they occupied in Kharkiv Oblast. Yet with the exception of the Kursk incursion, which did not restore control over any Ukrainian land, subsequent Ukrainian offensives have been failures. Russia still has the upper hand on the front, the current US administration is not particularly friendly to Ukraine and fatigue is rising, both domestically and internationally.

The future, yes, I see it. But I do not look forward to it.


The poems are full of striking images, striking less because they are unexpected than because their truth is impossible to deny. Amelina was there from the beginning, volunteering, documenting what her own eyes witnessed and others passed on with words. There’s so much grief and loss, and so many childless women wandering homeless – it’s a mood like that conjured by Beckett at times, but retaining a more direct connection to real events in a way that heightens (for me) their impact. What I like about them is that they prove Adorno’s comment that “there can be no poetry after Auschwitz” except that which deals with it. A new barbarity has created a new (for Amelina) way of expression, and driven her from finely-tuned prose into this direct and damaged poetry.

Perhaps the main German-language poet of the Holocaust was Paul Celan, a writer whose highly-allusive, pared down, language makes him a real challenge for me to read and understand. (Incidentally, his birthplace is in today’s Ukraine.) Both he and Amelina reacted to the horrors they faced in a similar way – the destruction of punctuation, the shattering of extended lines. But one thing that differentiates them is this sense of hope: Amelina’s poetry occasionally retains narrative and therefore a sense that the chaos of life at war can still be brought into order somehow in a way that Celan’s, in my experience of him, does not.

All this is to say that these poems are not just recollections of war, but poetry in and of themselves, poetry that stands comparison with other writers, just as much as it brings sad pleasure on its own.


I read Amelina in the original Ukrainian, which is my first time reading an extended work in that language. I have no formal learning in it, aside from reading a few chapters of a “Colloquial Ukrainian” textbook to note the key grammar endings where they differ from Russian; all I do is speak that other language fluently. I had no particular intention of learning Ukrainian either. When the full-scale invasion began I subscribed to various Ukrainian news channels on Telegram so I could keep up with their perspective, and after a few months a number of them gradually switched language from Russian to Ukrainian. I was annoyed (as were many of their readers), but kept reading. Somehow, gradually, I stopped merely reading and began understanding too. The written languages are very similar in practice, so it was not hard. A comparison would be reading Dutch if you speak German and English. Even without knowing Dutch, you can understand much of what is written. As if by magic. Listening, however, is another story.

As a result of this, however, there’s something uncomfortable about my Ukrainian. A little bit like how the war effected Amelina’s poetry, it’s shaped my understanding of her country’s language. To give an example, I knew the word for “rape” in Ukrainian when I saw it here, but had to google the word for “flower”. I probably know, at this point, more ways of saying “to die” in Ukrainian, than I do in German, the language of the country where I actually live. I’ve come to recognise that Ukrainian is a beautiful language, but all the words I know in it are words of violence and horror.

But there’s another source of discomfort, too: the sheer ease of the language is disturbing. Coming from the “language of the occupier”, it’s like I’m not even learning Ukrainian as itself, but myself colonising it. Every time I come across a “new” word and it’s immediately guessable because it’s a word I know in Russian with a different prefix or using an “і” instead of an “и”, I feel like I’m cheating. Though I do try to view it the other way – that every Ukrainian word that I have to look up is the language proudly asserting its difference – it doesn’t quite wash away the distaste entirely, perhaps because the number of shared words seems so high.

Taras Schevchenko, Ukraine’s national poet (though he also wrote a large number of prose works in Russian, and a few poems), while imprisoned in what is today Kazakhstan, had a similar kind of problem. He found that his Ukrainian was beginning to collapse from being so long away from a Ukrainian-language community. He was making mistakes, for example by using Russian prefixes on his verbs instead of Ukrainian ones. All languages stand in continuity with every other, but Ukrainian and Russian are so close that the former is in practice forced to constantly be on watch for the words of the latter seeping in where they are not supposed to be. While reading Testimonies I sometimes found myself searching for words which in the end I could only find in Russian dictionaries.

All this is to say that, reading Amelina as a Russian speaker, you also have the shock of a language asserting itself:

“And this is also not poetry
Just the truth
Written in a column
Without punctuation
In Ukrainian
(That’s important)
To gather money for the AFU
And for my sister”

I am glad I read these poems, that I heard Amelina’s voice and was able to translate a few snippets of it here. (Out of copyright considerations I did not do more, but I’ve written to the rightsholder to ask if I can do the rest of the poems mentioned and will make a separate post if they agree). Many Ukrainian cultural figures like to tell us to stop reading Russians and start reading Ukrainians, but the fact remains that Ukrainian has few translators, even for authors as canonical in their tradition as Schevchenko, Ivan Franko, or Lesya Ukrainka. While I have my misgivings with a considerable amount of what these contemporary cultural figures say on this and other topics, the idea that we should all hear about Ukraine from its own people is something that there can be no reasonable argument against.

That is why I’m grateful to have the opportunity to share Amelina’s voice with the readers of this blog, as a small contribution to that end.


The original poems and others can be read on these pages:

“Жінко, він ще до тебе повернеться, твій Азов”: добірка поезій Вікторії Амеліної

“Наче у мову влучив снаряд”: добірка віршів Вікторії Амеліної про війну

Here you can read three of her poems, professionally translated:

Three poems | London Ukrainian Review